For diamonds do appear to be; Just like broken glass to me

[sproutgirl]

I was fine earlier. I was good. I had Cobra Starship and The Academy Is . . . goodness. I got to hear Ryan's paparazzi song and Toby's prostitution song. And of course, I got to see the embodiment of Terry up close and personal. I got to hear two new songs from TAI. I got to hold Beckett's hand for a few seconds.

And suddenly I'm not so good anymore.

Ok, maybe not so suddenly. I don't really know.

I wish there was something I could do. But I can't. Not even listen. All I can do is blather on about model trains and purple crayons and jagulars. Maybe that's all that's needed from me. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. But I will continue to do it, because it's all I can do, and I want to help. And because I hope it does help.

And seriously, that's not even why I've suddenly crashed. Not totally. Most of it's just me being moody. Again. And there's an emotional story I'm reading and I'm finding a lot of new, slightly depressing, meanings to songs I already knew.

So. Who wants to slap me now? Go on. It might just do me some good.

Comments

[salemdipity.livejournal.com]

I don't want to slap you, actually. I just want to hug you. If it helps, I have <lj user="cda_cdj") open in another window (what does that stand for, anyway?) and once I'm done catching up on my flist, I'm going to read.

[sproutgirl.livejournal.com]

(My initials and Character Development Journal)

I'm STILL reading this fic that is, like, 1000 pages long, so I will log onto YM now, in case you want to say "Hi." Or possibly "I liked the part where ______." Or even "Dude, quit with Ryan and get back to Ben."

[salemdipity.livejournal.com]

I haven't forgotten about all your little ficlets - I know I'm woefully behind. I'm sorry; the last couple of days have been tough and I need to lick my wounds for a bit. But I'll make my way through them, promise :D

[cda-cdj.livejournal.com]

No worries. I know it's not been a good few days for you. Anyway, you are never obligated to read anything, you know.

[salemdipity.livejournal.com]

Yes, I know. If I didn't want to read them, I wouldn't. But I want to, so there.

[cda-cdj.livejournal.com]

Do I sense a tongue sticking out there? Lol