For diamonds do appear to be; Just like broken glass to me

[sproutgirl]

I was fine earlier. I was good. I had Cobra Starship and The Academy Is . . . goodness. I got to hear Ryan's paparazzi song and Toby's prostitution song. And of course, I got to see the embodiment of Terry up close and personal. I got to hear two new songs from TAI. I got to hold Beckett's hand for a few seconds.

And suddenly I'm not so good anymore.

Ok, maybe not so suddenly. I don't really know.

I wish there was something I could do. But I can't. Not even listen. All I can do is blather on about model trains and purple crayons and jagulars. Maybe that's all that's needed from me. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. But I will continue to do it, because it's all I can do, and I want to help. And because I hope it does help.

And seriously, that's not even why I've suddenly crashed. Not totally. Most of it's just me being moody. Again. And there's an emotional story I'm reading and I'm finding a lot of new, slightly depressing, meanings to songs I already knew.

So. Who wants to slap me now? Go on. It might just do me some good.

Comments

[sproutgirl.livejournal.com]

Lol. I didn't. I also didn't realise how long it is. But that part where he's at the piano after telling him to go? Bwaaahhh!

And you haven't sucked me in. Swear. I really was desperate for something to do last night that wasn't my own writing. I find I have a very useful switch in my head that allows me to think of them as totally separate, totally fictional people.

Plus I was looking for good gay porn. I figured I'd give your list a shot. :)

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

It's true, I rec good gay porn. *nods solemnly*

Well...if you're sure...

I mean, it's not like I haven't gleefully converted people to bandom. But--you're different. If you see what I mean.

[sproutgirl.livejournal.com]

I wrote my own a few days ago (gay porn that is) and have been craving good stuff ever since.

It's fine, really. I'm not going anywhere else looking for it or anything. But thank you for recognising the specialness of me my situation. :)

[elucreh.livejournal.com]

You are special, you're the only one, you're the only one like YOU!

[sproutgirl.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*